A little bit about Me
About Me
It can be a lonely place. Experiencing an assault when I was younger definitely left its mark. The nightmares began right away, every night it felt as though I re-living the experience. During the day, whether I was going to work or going to the supermarket, things would pop up around me that reminded me of what happened. There was just no relief. It can be hard walking around everyday with all the little things reminding you of what you went through
a huge part of me felt like somehow this was my fault. There was definitely guilt and shame that I see now, was completely misplaced. But at the time, it kept me from telling anyone about what had happened. I felt responsible, in a way. That what happened was my fault and I had years of conditioning to back that up as well. I held all of my shame, my guilt and my fear deep within me and it started to fester
Because I was holding this within, it started to impact my relationships. I wanted nothing more than to have a loving, healthy, affectionate relationship with my partner at the time but just the hint of physical affection made me also want to run away and hide. He would be so confused and didn’t know what to do or say to help me. Honestly it was the cornerstone of many of my relationships and friendships. Physical affection and understanding myself just wasn’t in the cards at the time and it continued to get worse from there
Eventually, I knew I needed support and so I looked for help. My GP referred me to a Psychologist. It didn’t help and I was referred to another. Both of them used approaches that just didn’t work for me. They felt clinical, like my experience was something to be diagnosed and treated when what I craved more than anything, was a space where I could just breathe, where I could connect with someone that ‘got it’, who empathised, who saw where I was and who also saw the way through.
And that’s when I found an amazing counsellor. I spent years with her and I just cannot explain the shifts and changes that happened for me as a result. I’m in a much better place now, enjoying relationships, trusting and building trust with others and have a life that I am so deeply thankful for, every single day. I am able to do things I otherwise wouldn’t have got to experience because of the heavy lifting and work I did with my therapist
It was my experience with her (the therapist) that inspired me to help others. And so I spent years obtaining my own qualifications so that I could do this work and be a support for you. It’s why I’m here. I know this is my purpose. And I want you to know that there is a way through for you too, when you are ready. If that feels comforting to know, that’s good. If you’d like to touch base with me and speak on the phone before you make a decision one way or another about allowing yourself to receive unconditional support, let me know or just click the button below to find a time that works for you.